strong.

sometimes you have to be shattered entirely to find out just how strong you really are.
I haven't broken down, I have been so unbelievably strong. It's so amazing. <3

The way someone rips away from you, tearing your soul to pieces... you'd think I'd be still here, talking about how much I miss him, how much I need him and how I will do anything for him to stay.. but I'm not. This time is just.. Different. I not only saw it coming, but I felt it. It's like the elephant in the room, you know it's there but you try so desperately to avoid it. And once it's pointed out, it has lost it' awkward-ness. The care was only there because you were trying to avoid it, so once it's out in the open, you see no problem.

I personally, think us a women don't believe in ourselves enough,

Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty, 
is the face in the mirror, looking back at you
You walk around thinking you're not pretty, 
but that not true, cause I know you.


We never are looked at as strong, independent women,
if we stick up for ourselves, if we keep our crap together, we are automatically bitches,
or stuck up.
I'm telling you, that's not true.

This time, it's only been about 4 days, 2 officially,
it's been such a learning experience,
I know so much more about myself, and I am so thrilled to see what else I didn't know.

Strength is found deep in me, I have so much faith in myself. I haven't broken down. I haven't done things out of spite, I haven't slipped up and bashed you, calling you all the things I should never say. That also creates peace inside me. Not letting your name cross my lips, because if I sit here and talk smack, it will come back to you, and it will create an angry person in me.
Soul Searching, and all this has made me such a better person <3 :D