fuck off.

my step dad is seriously pushing me to wits end.
how can you see into my eyes like open doors. leading you down into my core. where I've become so numb, without a soul
He seriously never stops. It's a vicious never ending cycle of every wrong I can ever cause. Swallowing each angry word, praying this doesn't escalate. Where the hell is my mother? It's 8:30.. She should be here.
Wake me up inside. I cant wake up. Call my name, and save me from the nothing I've become.
My right brain tells me I'm overreacting. I just need to lay back and let the music consume me and relax. But every other part of me wants to scream at him a rebel. Punch holes in walls and scream until my throat bleeds.
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul. Don't let me die here.

I've been living a lie. There's nothing inside.