sleepy days.

Tday just so happens to be one of those really cheerful sunny days where the sun glows bright through your window, while a crisp cool breeze nips at any bare skin you leave exposed.
I would love to just relax in my cozy bed, my limbs intertwined with someone sweet. They intoxicating scent working you into your own kind of high.
The sweet sun envelops the cold and expels it from your body, and heart. Nothing matters but that very moment. And for that very moment, the entire world is frozen. God tells you there is no need to worry about anything else, but yet you do.

A world of hope

We are all survivors, to some measure.
You stuck your head above ground to see the new horizon. You escaped the all consuming darkness, the unalterable pain. It was all you knew, but you waited for the storm to pass. Now you see the sun. The moon, and stars; all in the same sky. Your stars are points of reason and worth. The moon; your support system. The people you love unconditionally. The sun; your future. Beaming a light full of luster on the past.

You've come so far kid, there's no room to slow down now. Keep moving forward, full court press, GO!
There's 9 seconds left on the clock and you have a straight shot to the top of the key. You only need two points and the game is yours. You take the shot, and you miss. The buzzer blares loud as you crash down from the air, falling surrender to the loss. The apposing team storms the court and you can do nothing but lay there frozen, and weep. The coach comes to you and helps you to your feet, the ground is still solid to your surprise. The world wasn't over. So you didnt win districts, but you won the pride of knowing just how far you got.

See the kind of mindset I have?
I may have it crappy, but people have it worse other places.
So when someone else needs my attention, or my help, my "measly" problems get pushed aside and I help them <3

Little house

"I love this place
But it's haunted without you
My tired heart
Is beating so slow

Our hearts sing less than
We wanted, we wanted
Our hearts sing 'cause
We do not know, we do not know

To light the night, to help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said, I always know

You can catch me
Don't you run, don't you run
If you live another day
In this happy little house
The fire's here to stay

To light the night, to help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said, I always know

Please don't make a fuss, it won't go away
The wonder of it all
The wonder that I made
I am here to stay

I am here to stay
Stay"
This song says so much about what I feel right now.
Some parts relevant, some not.
The feelings we are equipt with are so amazing. and powerful
I feel as though I'm awe-struck laying on the cold, soild ground,
wishing for solace in the midnight.
But also I am seated, drinking in the joyus feelings of love.

On most days my mind is stuck on the former.
2 days of 7, the latter,
more days then not, Im stuck fliting from both:
My shoulders being rocked back and forth to the dizzying rhythem of some sick melody. My brain rattling feelinglessly inside my head.

I wish so much for some order to this jumble of life I live at this very moment. (I say that because I am unhappy this moment)
Contrary to what people think, I don't like or enjoy being sad.
There is a deep sense of yearning for nutrality in this whole whirwind section of my life.

I pray and wait, uneasy for this all to be some disgusting, twisted nightmare.

Welcome, friends.

I don't feel like calling you all followers, because although you "follow" my blog, you aren't followers. You all are unique in your own beautiful ways.
And this I will never fail to see.
This will be a brief post, seeing as I have things to do, but I'll just introduce me to you.
I am Kris,
My name is really Kristen, but I prefer Kris.
I won't tell you about me as a person, because I'm me, and you will soon discover who I am (if you haven't already) through my posts.

sorry for the short post.
I'll be back.
<3
Kris Marie